Archive for the ‘Lacking of purpose’ Category
So I took down my last post pending revision and expansion, because it had some problems that I’d like to address at some point, but because of some personal crises that I hadn’t processed as well as I’d thought–which, notably, the post was in response to–I’m not currently in a good mental space to discuss anything about how rape culture and my life interact to anyone but my close friends.
I’ll probably revise and expand it eventually, but I’m not quite sure when, it may be as much as several months, given how my attention span works.
I can pretty confidently say the world hates me. About an hour ago my computer stopped working. Ironically in the middle of writing a post about why the internet is really important to my (and other people’s) life. Now I am without it. 😦 Considering while I do have a backup computer, it’s old and runs a five year old version of linux and can’t work with my internet. And as of five minutes ago doesn’t have a left arrow key.
Well… okay I can at least at the moment use my parents internet some of the time, and I should get a replacement computer soon. Tomorrow is not out of the question, which is good because if I don’t get a replacement I will probably start developing some ridiculous stress. Well, moreso than what I already have. ._.
(And I mean, I could tie this into ranting about privilege if I really wanted to, since reason I didn’t get a new computer several weeks ago is some really fucked up bureaucracy and tied up with the idea that people with mental health issues need others to do their thinking for them; and for that matter, half the reason I can get out of this situation is that while I’m really poor, my parents aren’t.)
Well, okay, I’m not particularly magic, since I’m trying to come up with something to write about and I’m totally failing. I have a few ideas but they aren’t entirely fleshed out enough to write about, including such topics as doing lit crit on Morrowind (and probably Shivering Isles if I ever get a computer that can run it again), why people need to stop saying “gender is socially constructed, sex is biology” or crap like that, how Dwarf Fortress is the only fantasy game/setting that’s even close to being able to invoke “realistic” about anything it does, why Call of Cthulhu sucks and Nobilis doesn’t, and probably some more things I can’t think of right now.
Hi. I probably will write more later but I just didn’t want my blog to have a “Hello World” post on it. …which okay is kind of what this is. Hello World! Now go away and stop sucking. (The world, that is, not the readers. Readers are awesome. Unless they also suck.)